first and foremost happy birthday paula, i love you dearly...
and now for something completely different...
ok so how do i feel today? hmmm i feel like i feel everyday i feel like 2 different people i mean i am closer to feeling like the person on the inside but i am also so very scared about life. i mean i grew up a very anti-social kid, no friends, no family, just a scared little boy that was not a liked child, and know i am trying so very hard to live as a woman would and i have no idea how to do this. i feel rushed to fit in to a norm that i dont understand its like i told paula natural woman have the benefit of enviornment and social order that helps them grow up acting naturally but for me i was not alowed feminen thought or actions for fear of being beaten by my dad.
so im not complaining its just a musing on how i feel. incomplete....
i think the hardest part for me to deal with is the fact i have no trans friends to learn with and talk to about these things...
on a side note i really am disappointed in the so called lgb leadership in this country they forget that it is lgbT not lgb(no T), come on guys we have backed you every step of the way and yet you as a group continue to ignore trans rights while you beg us for dadt and marriage support.
why dont hrc and the like do something for us how about insurance rights for starters, then come ask for dadt and doma help....
any woo ill be around later
rayna
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